please, stay strong

it was a bright monday, and for a moment i believe will be a good start of the week :)

while walking down the way to my work place, i passed thousand of people in the city with different clothes, speaking different languages, doing different jobs smiling and laughing happily. i always wonder how they always manage to do that? jealousy seriously caught me today.

my day wasnt bright as expected. well, never expect what will happen in life as the reality may dissapoint us sometimes. off to work today and i worked hard to make the house clean and tidy with the hope it will satisfy her. i worked non-stop for 3 hours to ensure all could be done on time.

but, in the middle of evening where i got myself twilight novel and a piece of puding roti, i recieved a call. from her. a few complaints were made. oh, didnt i make sure everything was good before i left this morning? why it must always ended like this?

suddenly i felt so demotivated. down. and somehow felt like giving up.
i'm tired. too tired actually :(

and sayonara dear seniors! have a safe journey back home.

was it me or the day who wasnt bright actually?

summer and all about it.

this entry may be too early to post (referring to the title, but i cant think of better one at the moment) ;)

it has been a month. days are empty without classes, lectures, tutorials, assignments, tasks and etc. so no more waking up early in the morning to attend lectures or stay up late to finish last minute assignments. no more! i'm in 3 months summer break. yeay!

well, to update brisbane is getting hotter nowadays. when i say hot, i do mean HOT, which is up to 34 degrees sometimes. panas! the sun rises as early as 4.30am and its only getting dark by 6.30pm. oh, now i know this is the beautiful summer that they are referring to :p

for the past 4 weeks, nothing much were done actually. nothing exciting for the moment except for few regular things like the job offers. yeah, i'm now working. for the sake of travelling all aussies as i always dream of, i need to work this summer. the work is tiring as it'll make me fall asleep like i never want to wake up anymore. huhu. but still, do pray for my murah rezeki okay! i wish to do babysitting lah! :D

apart from that, nothing much. i'll wake early as i couldnt bear the sun rays through my window every morning, have my-at-least-20-minutes-shower, breakfast, off to work if monday and tuesday, if not i'll let myself update with blogs, facebooks every 10 minutes of the day, movies, books, magazines, to labs sometimes (coz there are airconds there :p), get my-not-used-to-cook-lunch at noon, a walk in the evening, dinner and goodnite :) boring huh? i admit i do feel so sometimes. but still, im doing well and happy to be here!

that's all of my bla bla bla. see you around! ;D

eid adha

it's the day of sacrifices. dont worry much as i won’t repeat the same story that we used to learn and listen since our childhood, just a simple question to let everyone ponder. we usually said we easily get bored with the same story told again again, but lets ask ourself how many of us could retell the same great story without referring to any books if you are asked to do so?

sacrifice may seem a simple word but it has a big meaning to me personally. being the eldest of the family who always wish to win in everything, i have always been reminded that to surrender and let others win never mean you’re a loser. not even a failure, instead its a beautiful thing called sacrifice that you do for the sake of your loved ones. you do because you love them, just as simple as that.

and today, i wish to do one more thing. to have a positive perception towards others and not to be prejudice or judgemental of all what he/she did in the past without knowing the truth. people, lets see the world more beautifully, more than we do at the moment :)

here was my first aidiladha, my second eid in australia.

and i celebrated this wonderful day with them :D less is more!

and as usual, we did makan-makan too :D never have to miss lontong, rendang, kuah kacang and nasi impit coz we had them all here!

vampire vs wolf

new moon mood. yes, i officially watched the everyone's-favourite-movie today ;)

to a person whom didnt read the novel for the sake of watching the movie, i would say its a great one. yes, especially for this kind of girl who loves the cheesy-sweet-love-story, new moon would always be a perfect one :D

and a great news is im love with jacob (taylor lautner)! :D sorry edward, i think vampire is just not my type :p

dear heroes

congratulations :)

adik, for your huge improvement in math

and

zharif on your excellent result in UPSR 09.

keep it up boys!

the pursuit of happiness

the true meaning of happiness is when you can forgive and forget no matter what he/she did to you in the past.

no one is perfect. so by accepting others for who he/she is, that is happiness.

happiness also means that you can always be yourself whenever and wherever you want without much worry of what others think about you.

happiness is not only about your own self; it's about others; family, friends, love and even a perfect stranger.

happiness is also when you will feel happy if people around you feel happy.

and happiness never fails to bring smiles and laughs to make everyone's days brighter.

ah, it was just my random thoughts of that simple magic word crossed my mind this morning.

p/s: i already got my happiness for today. thanks for the long lovely conversation we had just now.

miss u more mama.

am so sorry for making u worried.

for the time being, i just want to let u know, im okay.

please dont worry much.

will call u soon, promise :'/

love u.

a new journey is about to start

my one and only younger sis is going to sit for her SPM this wednesday, 18th nov 2009. her long journey is just about to start. fight till the last ya!

angah,

u must be wondering why it feels like the clock is ticking too fast kan sekarang? especially when thinking of not enough practice have been done,
few topics havent been covered
made you feel like you cant spare time do anything else

other than READ, READ and READ.

but remember,

it doesnt matter how many books have u read,
how many discussions have u made,
or how many nights u didnt even sleep,
what matters most now is to
always believe in yourself that u are able to do well.

girl, u will always be in my prayer, mum's, dad's, abang's, adik's and others too. so good luck and do your best okay! :)

lamington national park, gold coast

14th nov 2009.

reached Gold Coast countryside area where lies a small township of Canungra. also picnic with saturday-must-have breakfast, almond & custard croissant at the park while enjoying the great view around :)

its summer and the sun shined brightly made the day blazing hot. luckily, the spectacular view along the way uphill made the journey worth it.

thank u uncle driver, because of you we managed to reach the top of the mountain. plus extra credit too for being cool and steady with that dizzy zig zag road.

discovered a big tall tree with its host has decayed. we managed to get inside and the picture above was the view from the bottom. super duper awesome huh? the small circle up there is the top of the tree.

and before departing back to brisbane, we stopped at Canungra Valley Vineyard located at the foothills of the national park. it is where grapes are planted, processed and kept in order to produce quality wine.

the grapes are still green

and as usual these two ladies had a great time taking photos

thats all for the day. jiji is now back in m'sia, spending time with her beloved family and aliaa went to cairns for fruitpicking job with another 7 friends for a month.

while I go nowhere, always be in Brisbane.

p/s: and thank you too for your pictures miss aliaa zawani!

distance

when she was trying hard to fulfill one's wish, i could see how much she loves and cares of the lucky person. and i know i shouldnt doubt her at any moment of my life. no one should.
cause i believe i'll always be in her list too, even though i may not be her favourite one.

and, if only i could feel the same about him.
i know i shouldnt think, feel or even say so, but it cant be helped.
there are times i could feel the difference.
i always love you,
but sometimes i just feel like you dont feel the same way as i do.
not as much as you care others.
and i dont know why.

please forgive me for having those feelings now.
and thank you Allah for helping her through her hard time.

dates

since the last day of semester 2, 2009...

30th oct - off to DFO to do some shopping. also syapa's 20th birthday. HAPPY BIRTHDAY a long long friend ->syedputra 04-05, ipba 06-08, QUT 09-10. yeay, we are both 20 now! please please, be more mature okay?

3rd nov - aliaa's birthday. ZUM GEBURSTAG vie aliaa! off to harbour town, gold coast - suprise, cake, wishes, hugs, present, photos, love. wish u a great year ahead full of smiles and happiness ;)

4th nov - seniors' C4 farewell party. a simple but memorable one. goodbye, and have a safe journey back home everybody! thank you for everything.

5th nov - went to valley with erma n ain. having fun wit these ppl who are eargerly waiting to fly back to m'sia soon.

6th nov - out to southbank with nz's. a must-see place to visit in brisbane :) discovered unpeel bananas with different flavours in it sold at the night market. human are getting very creative now. haih.

7th nov - movies marathon, Dunia baru the movie and Ella Enchanted. yes, we laughed a lot tonite! let's do it again okay? :D

8th nov - jiji arrived brisbane. a date at roma street parkland, with ice cream too.

...and now is preparing for the 3 months holidays plan. to be continued..